Chapter 15
AJ
stood over Annie gripping her hand tightly as Brian continued a further
examination of her adomen. "Her skin freakin' looks yellow around her
ribs," AJ whispered.
Brian
sighed. "It's another sign of acute cholecystitis, but it's still too
early to rule out her appendix. I'm not a surgeon, Kevin will have to figure
all this out."
"Acute
what?" AJ asked confused at his words.
"Cholecystitis.
Severe inflamation and infection of the gall bladder," Brian explained.
"Where
the hell is Kevin anyway?" Katie snapped her eyes growing wide in anger as
she stormed back and forth infront of the door awaiting the surgeon. "It's
not fair for him to be sitting on his damn ass sulking while Annie has to lay
here in misery! And shouldn't we be doing something for her? Get her on an IV
or put her on oxygen. Maybe we should get her a blanket. She's shaking!"
"Katie,"
Annie whispered attempting to fight the pain. "I'm okay."
"No,
you're not, Annie! You've been getting sick the past two weeks."
"How
long?" Brian whispered in worry turning to Katie.
"Two
weeks!" the petite nurse exclaimed nearly becoming hysterically.
"Look,
Katie, just calm down," Annie soothed pushing herself to sit up only to
clutch AJ's arm as the intense pain came again. "Ah!" she winced.
"ANNIE!!"
Katie panicked.
AJ
wrapped his arms around the doctor helping her lye back. "Annie, you're in
no condition to move around. You're sick, severly sick. You have to let herself
be a patient for once."
Brian
frowned watching Katie pace back and forth nervously taking deep breaths as she
twisted her hands together in frustation. He felt Annie's forehead a final
time. "AJ, I want you to stay here with Annie and have Kevin do something
about her temperature once he gets in here, it feels like it's still going up.
Katie and I have some business to tend to."
AJ
sighed looking down at the redheaded doctor. "What do I do if Richardson
doesn't get here soon?"
Katie
crossed her arms. "Then, get Howie to stay with Annie and go find Kevin!
Then, you do drag his sorry ass in here to make her better!"
Brian
gently placed his hand on Katie's back. "Come on, Katie, let's step
outside."
"I
want to stay with Annie...."
"I
know you do," he sympathized softly. "But you're a little scared right
now and if she senses that it won't help her get better. She's at a very
delicate stage right now, I don't even know the severity of her
condition."
Katie
nodded following him out the door. "Why did this have to happen?" she
shouted as Brian took her into the lounge bolting the door behind them.
"I
don't know why these things happen, Katie."
The
nurse ran her hands through hair repeatively as her nervous tension soar.
"I-It's just not right!" she stammered. "What if Kevin doesn't
make it better, Brian? Huh? What happens then? She has a fear of death! She's
terrified of it!" She fell into the open chair behind her angry tears
falling from her eyes. "I should have said something! She told me, I saw
her vomiting her guts up...I should have just gone to someone right then!"
Her breath came in quick gasps.
"Katie,
calm down," Brian whispered kneeling infront of her.
"NO!"
she exclaiming rocking herself back and forth as the panic took over her body.
"It's not fair! Nothing has gone right since I came here!" She felt
her pulse doubling, her heart beating so loudly in rang in her ears.
"First, I come here and some ass bites me! Freakin' bites me like he was
some wild animal! And he freakin' kicks Annie in her side...Oh, man, is that
why she's hurting? Because he kicked her?"
Brian
shook his head placing his hand on her knee. "No, Katie, that happened
over a month ago. It's not because of that."
Katie
continued her fight. "After my damn cuts heal, I get a stomach bug which
leaves you taking care of me again! And no matter what I do it never seems to
be enough...My work isn't good enough, I'm not strong enough! Kevin hates me!
He hates me, Brian! You probably all hate me!" she panicked drawing her
knees to her chest burying her head in her knees.
"Katie,"
Brian whispered keeping his voice steady as he gently took her arm. "I
want you to stay with me here. Listen to me. You're having a panic attack,
okay? Now, calm down. I'm going to help you through this."
"No!"
she argued pulling away from him as her tears remained present. "Nothing
is okay! Don't you get that? Nothing is right with me! I tried to help people
and I still mess up! I went with AJ into the city to try to help..." She
took in a unsteady breath as she remembered the horrid event. "We were
just trying to help people! But as we were leaving....something broke out! Oh
God, there were shots being fired! And they were so close! A-and AJ threw me
down o-on the ground and I hit my cheek!"
She
brought her trembling hand to her face. "I was so scared! I honestly
thought I was going to die! Then, I got back here and the one time you needed
me I wasn't there! And now Christina's dead! And my family...my family needs
money. I have to send them money!"
"Katie!"
he said loudly wrapping his arms around her. "Calm down! You're
hyperventaling. Now, just talk to me. Just let it out, clear your mind and let
your body rest." He rested his fingertips on her wrist maintaining her
pulse. "I want you to count to three with me."
"What?"
she cried too upset to comprehend his statement.
"Count
to three with me," he stated again remaining calm.
"One...two....she..."
she muttered through each gasping breath.
"That's
it," Brian encouraged rubbing her back. "Do it again.
One....two....three....And again."
"One...two...three..."
she breathed. "One.....two.....three...."
"Just
try to relax, it's okay now," he assured her helping her relax.
The
nurse lifted her head wiping her eyes. "I'm...I'm okay now," she
managed to cough out.
"Your
pulse is going back down," he said glancing down at his watch.
"Everything's gonna' be all right."
"What
happened?" she asked shaking her head in an attempt to clear her confused
mind.
"You
had a panic attack," Brian explained. "You've been under a lot of
stress and Annie's illness was just your breaking point."
Katie
sniffled. "I can't stand seeing her like that. I've never seen her sick a
day in her life, let alone something like that. She looks so pale Brian. She
practically looks dead."
"Don't
talk about that right now," he instructed. "It sounds like your life
has been pretty stressful."
She
nodded. "It's been hell lately, and this was just too much." She
glanced up at him her dark eyes still glistening with tears. "I'm so sorry
I did that infront of you."
He
waved his hand. "Don't worry about it, it's perfectly understandable. I'm
just glad I was able to be here."
"Me
too, Brian, but that's not your job. You shouldn't have to be taking care of
your nurse. Besides, you hate me."
The
doctor raised an eyebrow. "I what?"
"You
hate me," she repeated softly hanging her head.
He
ruffled her brown mane. "Katie, why on earth would I hate you?"
"Because
of what I did. Going with AJ to help that man in the city."
Brian
chuckled. "Katie, I could never be mad at you for trying to help someone.
I don't think I could ever be mad at you in any way at all."
She
swallowed hard fighting her remaining tears. "But you were so upset when
AJ and I came back from helping that man."
"You're
right," he responded nodding. "I was upset, I was never mad. Getting
mad isn't something I'm good at. I leave that to dear cousin Kevin. I was only
upset because I was afraid you could have been severely hurt or even killed in
that nieghborhood. And, to be honest, I was devastated by Christina's death.
You were the only one I thought I could turn to understand how I felt, and when
you weren't here I didn't know what to do."
"I'm
sorry," she apologized.
"I
know you are, you don't have to keep saying it. You never had to say it to
begin with."
"Yes,
I do," she argued. "I should have just told you to begin."
He
shrugged. "We both made some mistakes that day, it's all in the past
now." He stood walking to the vending machine. "I'm gonna' get you a
bottled water, I want you to sip it slowly."
"May
I ask you a question?" she wondered watching him.
He
bent over grabbing the beverage. "Sure."
"Why
are you always watching over me? I mean, anytime I was in trouble there you
were as my knight in shining armor."
The
doctor sat beside her passing over the beverage. "Well, I don't know
really. It was just something I saw in you the first day you came here, you
were so talented, yet so sensitive. I just wanted to help you as much as I
could. You kind of reminded me of myself."
Katie
gave him a small smile. "Why are on earth would you want to protect a girl
who is constantly finding trouble?"
He
shrugged. "It's more fun that way, never a dull moment."
"That
episode I just gave you was anything but dull."
"Katie,
honey, you can't help that. You've been stressed, overworked and your best
friend is very sick."
"Brian?"
Katie whispered facing him. "I know Kevin is known as being a rough man,
but he wouldn't leave Annie in pain like that, would he?"
Dr.Littrell
shook his head. "I don't know what Kevin will do when he sees Annie."
The
nurse took a sip of her water. "I just wish things would look
better."
He
smiled. "I think I have an idea. Just sit here." Brian walked over to
his locker. "I brought this over the children's ward yesterday, but I
think you need it more than anyone else." He hid the object beyond his
back. "You ready?"
"Ready,"
she replied drying her final tears.
"Here,"
he said pulling out a teddy bear from behind his back.
"Oh,
Brian, it's adorable!" she squealed. "I don't deserve this!"
"Yes,
you do. Take it," he stated placing the stuffed animal in her lap.
She
looked up at him. "I don't know what to say. Thank you, thank you so
much."
"It's
so big deal. It's just a bear."
"It's
not just a bear," she debated against him running her fingers over the
toy's fluffy fur and blue bow. "It's special. Just like you. Any person
that is willing to help me through all of this has to be special."
He
sighed. "Katie, there's a reason I've always tried to help you."
She
nodded grinning. "Yeah, I know, because we're a little bit alike."
"No,
more than that." He paused. "Katie, I...I..."
"You
what?"
"I
like you."
"Well,
I like you, too."
"No,
I mean, I like you, I care for you."
Suddenly,
all of the nurse's troubles appeared to vanish as she smiled. "I like you,
too, Brian."
He
allowed a half-smile to surface. "May I kiss you?"
Katie
placed her arms around his neck leaning into him. "Not if I kiss you
first."
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