One Year of TWWBW!

Well, I wasn’t sure if I was going to have an update for you today or not, but… surprise!  I do!  Thank goodness for short chapters!  Chapter 38 of The World Will Be Waiting is up!

It’s been exactly one year since I started this story on July 1, 2022.  In the past year, I’ve worked on it every single day and written a total of 205,783 words and 38 complete chapters.  I’ve updated it almost every week since I started posting it in October, the only exceptions being the day Aaron died and the weekend I was at 90s Con.  I’m proud of that record of consistency and hope I can keep it going.  Like I said last week, I have a solid start on the next chapter, but it’s not done yet, so I can’t promise with 100% certainty that I’ll be able to update next Saturday.

Thank you to those of you who reached out with feedback and ideas after my last post; I appreciate your investment in the story!  I know there are a few Brian fans out there hoping for more Brian content, and as a Brian girl myself, a part of me feels bad for not writing as much about Brian as I used to.  It’s been a long time since I wrote a genuine BRIAN story (that wasn’t an April Fool’s joke).  I do still have several ideas for future Brian stories – a psychological thriller that always has the potential to be one of my next projects (I actually thought it was going to be before I went back to My Brother’s Keeper), an old-school suspense that would be fun to develop, an angsty medical drama that I will probably never write because it’s too sad even for me, and a couple of very old AU ideas that will probably never get written at this point either.  I’m also always on the hunt for A-Rok story ideas.  But, for now, I’m still really enjoying writing about Kevin.  I hope you’re enjoying reading TWWBW!

I made it!

I’m really coming down to the wire here, but I [just barely] managed to deliver an update today!  As I mentioned last week, I’ve finally caught up to myself, despite writing every day, and no longer have a buffer of chapters stored.  I finally finished drafting Chapter 37 of The World Will Be Waiting last night and literally just finished editing it before I started writing this post.  I hate feeling rushed, but I want to stick with my weekly updates for as long as I can.  Judging by how long my chapters have gotten and how long it takes me to write one, this may well be the last week I can.  With that being said, Chapter 37 is up!  This chapter focuses on Kevin’s comeback performance on Good Morning America, which you can watch here.

The nice part of having posted everything I’ve written for this story is that it’s a good time to get feedback from readers to help me move forward.  I hit the 200k word mark yesterday, which means the story is already getting close to the same length as its predecessor, My Brother’s Keeper.  Unfortunately, it’s nowhere near being finished.  I am plantsing this story, which means partly planning and partly flying by the seat of my pants.  I’ve always had a rough outline that includes a combination of real events that happened during this BSB era and fictional ideas I want to see happen, but I’ve also left myself plenty of room to take creative liberties as other ideas come to me.  As of right now, I’m planning to take the story into 2014 and through at least part of the In a World Like This tour.  The Boys aren’t even done with the album yet at this point in the story (August 2012), so I clearly have quite a ways to go!  Writing this sequel has helped me remember how By My Side got to be so long. 🙃

My question for those reading is this:  What would you like to read about?  If there are specific real life events and moments from the guys’ personal or professional lives that you would like to see me include in the story, please let me know!  Or if you have ideas for the fictional parts of the story, I’m open to those, too!  Feel free to leave a comment below or contact me however you feel most comfortable.  I would love to hear your thoughts!

Part of the reason I took longer than expected to finish Chapter 37 is that I got distracted by another fanfic-related passion project this week.  This one has to do with one of my very old stories, Code Blue!  I discovered a few months ago that the Code Blue website wasn’t working correctly anymore, at least not on Chrome.  I created the site on Microsoft Word in 2001 and hadn’t updated it since 2007, so it was very outdated.  Unfortunately, its layout used frames, which apparently are no longer supported in modern web browsers, and none of the links in the navigation menu would open in the main frame as intended.  I still have all the files for the website, so I thought it would be fairly easy for me to go back in and change the layout to remove the frames.  Unfortunately, I have a newer computer now, and the files weren’t working well with the newer version of Word.  After trying several different ways of editing them, none of which worked well, I finally decided to recreate the site on WordPress, which is what I now use for my main site.

This little project took more time than I meant for it to, but it was a labor of love.  Although Code Blue is discontinued, it will always have a special place in my heart.  It was my first big AU collaboration, which helped to pave the way for 00Carter and Song for the Undead, and the first of my own fanfics that I was completely obsessed with for a time.  It was so much fun to plan and write, at least in the beginning, but like most of my collaborations, the enthusiasm for it eventually fizzled out.  I have never really revisited the story itself since it was last updated, but I had fun rereading bits and pieces as I ran it through the spelling and grammar check on Google Docs to find and fix all the typos we’d missed before reposting each episode.  I typically don’t recommend reading discontinued stories, but Code Blue actually has a lot of content to enjoy.  There are 21 finished episodes that add up to a combined total of over 200k words and more than 500 pages.  And while there are certainly some cringey moments, there are also some great characters and storylines that I had completely forgotten about.  As far as writing quality goes, Code Blue was a transitional story for me.  I co-wrote it around the same time as I wrote the Broken series, so my writing style is about the same as those stories – better than the stuff I wrote as a beginner but not quite on par with the way I write now.  While I haven’t heard from most of my co-writers in many years and don’t have any real interest in continuing it by myself, I still have a love for it that made it worth my time.  For nostalgia’s sake, I kept the new site looking similar to the old one, and the content is the same aside from me removing the features that no longer worked, like the chatroom and guestbook.  I also updated the photo on the front page of the guys in scrubs because 1) my photoshopping skills are a little better now than they were in 2001, and 2) it was fun to do!  If you’ve never read Code Blue before, I hope you’ll consider checking it out!  For anyone wondering, this story is linked on my Archive site with my other really old content because of its age and the fact that it’s been discontinued.

I hope to be back with a new chapter of TWWBW next week, but I make no promises.  Thanks for bearing with me.  I look forward to hearing your feedback and ideas!

Peace and Love

Happy 23rd anniversary to the fandom’s favorite couple, Kevin and Kristin Richardson! ❤️  Couple goals!

Chapter 36 of my Kevin romance, The World Will Be Waiting, is up!  This chapter contains a spoiler for the book/movie Me Before You.  The book is over ten years old at this point, so I’m assuming most people either have already read it/watched the movie or don’t care to, but just in case, consider yourself warned.  I first read this book ten years ago, a few weeks before I got the idea for My Brother’s Keeper.  It’s been so long that I forgot that was all the same summer.  While Me Before You didn’t directly inspire MBK, I’m sure it did have some influence on me.  I definitely watched the movie a few times during the writing of that story.  I like both the book and movie but have since learned that it’s almost universally despised by the disability community, particularly people with spinal cord injuries, because of the ending.  I have mixed feelings on this myself.  As a reader, I’m not a big fan of the ending either and completely understand why people who are actually disabled would hate it.  But, as a writer, I respect the author’s commitment to her idea, which was inspired by a true story that ended the same way.  I reread the book the first week of my summer break to refresh my memory after including it in my story, and while I still don’t like the ending, the rest of the book holds up.  If anyone else who’s read it or seen the movie wants to discuss in more detail, drop a comment on this post or in the chapter!

Full disclosure: This is the last chapter I currently have finished, so I can’t guarantee weekly updates will continue after this week.  I do have a solid start on Chapter 37, but writing has been slow-going this week.  Hopefully the pressure of catching up to myself will help me kick it into high gear next week so I can keep the regular updates coming.  Feedback is always appreciated and helps me stay inspired! 😉

Part of the reason I haven’t written as much as I should have this week is that I’ve fallen back down The Sims rabbit hole.  This week, I built two places from the Broken universe:  Leonardi’s Pizza and the Empress Theater.  The quality of writing in Broken may not be up to my current standards, but the settings I created were pretty solid!  They were both based on real life places, my grandparents’ favorite local pizzeria and a restored art deco theater near my college campus that shows old movies.  The Sims versions are even cuter!  Of course, I had to send Nick and Claire on a date and take some screenshots.  For my Broken readers, this is my little Sims reenactment of Chapters 117 and 118. 💛❤️

I also made the parking lot next to Leonardi’s and had fun filling it with vehicles from my fanfic universe.  Along with Nick’s silver Jaguar and Claire’s old Toyota (which I made red even though I don’t think I ever mentioned the specific color in the story), there is the yellow Hummer from 00Carter and Song for the Undead (inspired by Nick’s episode of Punk’d), the silver Corolla from A Heart That Isn’t Mine, Jori’s truck from Secrets of the Heart (without the paint job), Brian’s blue BMW and Nick’s green Durango from Broken, Claire’s yellow Beetle from By My Side, Natalie’s white Camry and Kevin’s black Silverado from The World Will Be Waiting, and Kevin’s accessible van from My Brother’s Keeper.

Yeah, so, clearly I have too much time on my hand right now.  Happy summer!

500 Days of Kevin

Earlier this week, I hit Day 500 of my consecutive daily writing streak!  The streak started in January of last year while I was writing My Brother’s Keeper and continued with its sequel, The World Will Be Waiting, which I started the same day I finished MBK so I could keep it going.  I’m proud of myself, both for maintaining it as long as I have and for finding a writing routine that works for me and will allow me to keep it going indefinitely (or at least until I finish TWWBW, which is my goal).

Reaching this level of consistency is a big deal for me because I haven’t always been disciplined enough to write regularly, let alone daily.  If you’re a long-time reader, you may remember the SAMS era, when I would sometimes go months without updating because I was so overwhelmed with life and didn’t have the time or energy to devote to writing fanfic.  I thought this would get better when I finished SAMS and life slowed down a little, but what followed was a year or so in which I hardly updated at all because I literally couldn’t focus on a single story long enough to get anywhere with it.  I flitted from story to story, starting drafts of what would become A Heart That Isn’t Mine and My Brother’s Keeper but struggling to continue them when I came to an obstacle.  I feel proud of the fact that I eventually did come back to both stories and finish them.  Ever since I got back into my writing groove with AHTIM, I’ve been pretty productive for the past four years.  I appreciate those of you who stuck around through the dry spell, as well as those of you who have discovered my site since.  Thanks for your support!

I had some time this week, so I made a video to commemorate and celebrate this milestone.  If you’re like me and enjoy “behind the scenes” stuff, you may be interested to see how a novel grows and changes over time. (Tip: If the video appears blurry on this page, open it in YouTube to play the HD version, which should be clear.)

 

 

 

I took a screenshot of each day of the streak in the version history of Google Docs to document my daily progress.  Since I write each story in one document instead of creating separate docs for each chapter, they are very large files and are slow to load.  On some days, the version history showed my edits in green the way it’s supposed to, and other days, it did not.  I don’t know why but assume it was a data issue from the files being so large.  You may have also noticed that on some days, I wrote several pages, and on others, I barely wrote several words.  There are chapters that I finished in a day and pages that took me over a week to fill.  That’s just how it goes.  But even when I was busy or tired or uninspired, I still opened the story and added something to it every day, and that’s how I’ve been able to continue updating every week.  I am starting to catch up to myself and am only a couple chapters ahead of what I’m posting today, so wish me a productive summer so I can build up my backlog of chapters before the school year starts again!

That being said, Chapter 35 of The World Will Be Waiting is up!  I had a lot of fun writing this chapter because it was different from the kind of stuff I usually write but also closer to my daily life as a teacher than the kind of stuff I usually write.  I guess there’s something to be said for the whole “write what you know” thing, although I’ve always preferred to look up what I don’t know and then write about that.  But after many years of writing heavy, angsty, life-or-death drama, it’s kind of a nice departure to write a story that’s a little happier and has more of a slice-of-life feel.  I never thought I would write a whole novel that fit that description – about Kevin, no less – but here I am, doing just that and loving it!  I guess I’ve learned something in the last 500+ days.  Here’s to 500 more!

I gotta say that was my favorite June…

I’m over the moon that it’s June!  It finally feels like summer, even though it doesn’t officially start for a few more weeks.  I spent most of this week doing professional development for work, so it wasn’t the most productive week in terms of writing, but the streak is still alive!  I’m almost to 500 days!  I left you hanging on The World Will Be Waiting last week, but never fear, Chapter 34 is here!  I hope you enjoy it.

Thank you to all the wonderful readers who visit this site and read my stories, whether here or on AO3.  Kudos to those of you who take time to let me know you’re reading and share your thoughts!  I can’t tell you how much I appreciate hearing from you!

Speaking of kudos, I have a mission for you, should you choose to accept it!  I’m on a quest to defeat the dreaded Kudos Bot from wreaking havoc on my stats on AO3.  What is the Kudos Bot, you ask?  It’s a bot that adds large amounts of guest kudos to random stories, usually stories with very few hits, comments, or real kudos.  It attacked a couple of the 00Carter episodes last year, and my stats are still skewed as a result.  Why is this a bad thing, you ask?  Don’t writers want kudos?  Well, yes, but we want real kudos from real readers.  These fake kudos may look legit to people who don’t know any differently, but they mean nothing to me because I know I didn’t earn them.  Unfortunately, there’s no way to delete them, so my stats page continues to look like this:

As much as I adore 00Carter, “In the Wink of an Eye” clearly doesn’t deserve to be in the top five in terms of kudos.  If you know me, you probably know I am a little OCD when it comes to stats and numbers, so it annoys me to no end to see this.  I would love to be able to bump it out of the top five and boost Curtain Call into its rightful fifth place so that at least the bar graph is legit.

Here’s how you can help!  If you’ve read and enjoyed any of my stories in the past, click their titles below and leave a kudo!  Bonus points if you’re logged into your AO3 account, but if you don’t have one of those, you can still leave kudos as a guest.  (But please only leave one kudo per story and only on stories that you actually read.  Again, the goal here is legitimacy; I’m not trying to inflate my stats with fake or duplicate kudos.)

Curtain Call

A Heart That Isn’t Mine

Heroic Measures

My Brother’s Keeper

The Road to Bethlehem

Secrets of the Heart

Sick as My Secrets

Song for the Undead

The World Will Be Waiting

I just linked my novels/novellas, but feel free to visit my full works page if you’d like to leave kudos on any other stories.  I haven’t posted the Broken series on AO3 yet due to its length and the amount of editing it needs.  Too overwhelming for me now, but that could be a summer project at some point.  Anyway, thanks again to anyone willing to help me with my kudos drive!

Schooooool’s out for summer!

It’s been a long, hard school year, but I’m breathing a huge sigh of relief today because I made it to my summer break!  No more pencils, no more books…  Well, that’s only half-true; I never write in pencil, but I hope to do lots of writing and reading over the next couple months!  Chapter 33 of The World Will Be Waiting is up.  Hope you enjoy!

The World Will Be Waiting

Congratulations to the Backstreet Boys on the culmination of their wonderful DNA World Tour!  I feel blessed to have been able to see the show seven times in five different cities over the course of the two legs they did in North America.  I’ve been to at least one concert on every tour since Into the Millennium, and DNA had the best setlist.  (Bonus points for including my favorite song, “Don’t Wanna Lose You Now.”)  Even after four years, I’m sad to see it end but excited for what’s coming next – hopefully new music!  As long as there’ll be music, they’ll be coming back again… and the world will be waiting!

And, hey, speaking of The World Will Be Waiting, Chapter 32 is up!  If you rely on Twitter to be notified of updates, you should know that the plugin I use to automatically tweet a link to my posts no longer works with Twitter (thanks, Elon 🙄).  I will try to get in the habit of tweeting it myself, but if you’re not subscribed to my email list, you may want to do that.  Sign up on the sidebar if you’re on the desktop version of the site or scroll down to the bottom of the page if you’re on the mobile version.

Summer’s almost here, and this tired teacher is beyond ready!  See ya next Saturday with the next chapter!

An AI BSB fanfic?

Chapter 31 of The World Will Be Waiting is up!  I wrote a lot this week, which was much-needed because I’m only three chapters ahead of what I’m posting.  The past month has been busy and stressful, but fortunately, there are only two more weeks until my summer break starts!

In other news, Google Docs is testing out a new AI-assisted writing tool, and I got access to try it out.  While I would never use it to help me write fanfic for real – and, quite frankly, don’t need to – I was curious and wanted to see what it was capable of, having not played with ChatGPT yet.  So I asked it to help me write a Backstreet Boys fan fiction.  I wanted to share what it came up with because it cracked me up!

Read“An AI BSB fanfic?”

470!

May 6, 2023 has been quite a day so far!  A coronation, a Backstreet baby’s birthday, and I hit Day 470 on my writing streak. LOL  Congratulations to King Charles III, happy birthday to James, and Chapter 30 of The World Will Be Waiting is up for your reading pleasure!  Quite fitting that it takes place in London!

Happy anniversary!

Twenty-three years ago, on a Saturday just like this, I signed up for an account on Geocities and created a website to post the handful of fanfics I had written.  Bored and frustrated by the lack of timely updates on the other fanfic sites that hosted my first few stories, I did it on a whim.  I never imagined I would still be updating it twenty-three years later, with over eighty stories and four million words written under my name.  But here we are!  You can click on the About page to see screenshots of how the site has evolved over the years.

The world – and the World Wide Web – has changed a lot since 2000.  Geocities no longer exists.  Most fanfiction is posted on big archive sites such as Archive of Our Own, FanFiction.Net, and Wattpad, not individual sites like Dreamer’s Sanctuary.  Most of the individual sites from the golden era of BSB fanfic have been taken down or abandoned.  That makes me sad, but I’m also proud that my site has outlasted so many of its contemporaries.  BSB fanfic isn’t as popular as it used to be, but I still love writing it and appreciate those of you who still love reading it.  Thank you for visiting my site, reading my stories, and supporting me through all these years!  I’ve learned to write for myself, but I post my work for you.  Your clicks, kudos, and kind words mean the world to me. 💜

With that being said, Chapter 29 of The World Will Be Waiting is up!  I hope you enjoy it!