I hope my friends in the U.S. had a happy Thanksgiving and are enjoying the holiday weekend! Also, happy birthday to Baylee Littrell today and Elliott (Ava) McLean tomorrow!
Chapter 8 of The World Will Be Waiting is up! This is probably my favorite of the chapters I’ve posted up to this point because it’s just a feel-good chapter featuring the five guys and no other characters. I hope you enjoy it, too!
We got our first real snowfall this week, so it finally feels appropriate to be listening to the Christmas album. Don’t think I haven’t been listening to it for the past month anyway, but it was funny driving around during spooky season, singing “Winter Wonderland” while looking at the colorful leaves, pumpkins, and Halloween decorations. The snow here has melted, but I’m sending warm thoughts to my friends in Buffalo who are dealing with six feet of it!
I’m back to my regular Saturday updates, so Chapter 7 of The World Will Be Waiting is up! This is a happy little group-centered chapter. Hope you enjoy the fluff!
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It’s weeks like this past one that remind me just how much of a family the BSB fandom is. While I hate the circumstances it happened under, I love to see the Boys, their families, and my fellow fans come together to support each other. I’m happy for my friends in the UK and Belgium that the last few shows of the European leg of the DNA World Tour went on as planned and was glad to see how the fans who attended lifted Nick up with love and support. I’m also happy he and the other guys are headed home for a few weeks off with their families before the Christmas shows begin.
Back to our regularly scheduled updates… After postponing this one, I decided to post Chapter 6 of The World Will Be Waiting a day early, since I had the day off work due to Veterans Day. (Thank you to all the veterans who have served their country!) As I mentioned in my post last Saturday, this chapter does include a scene about Nick dealing with Leslie’s death, which may be triggering given Aaron’s recent passing, but that’s not what the majority of the chapter is about.
I’m working on Chapter 20 now, and the story is over 200 pages long and nearing the 100,000 word mark, so writing is still going well, and you can expect regular updates to continue. I have a feeling this is going to be a long story, probably quite a bit longer than My Brother’s Keeper, considering it’s already almost half as long and nowhere near the middle of the plot I’ve planned… and so far, I am really only plantsing (half planning, half flying by the seat of my pants) this one. I don’t see it becoming By My Side long, but I now remember how and why BMS got to be as long as it did, LOL. So hey, hope you like long stories! But I guess you probably wouldn’t be here if you didn’t, since that’s kind of my thing. Thanks for reading!
Well, this is not the post I wanted to write today. For anyone who hasn’t heard, Aaron Carter was found dead earlier this afternoon. You can read more details here. While I can’t say this is a shocking turn of events for anyone who has even somewhat followed Aaron’s very public downward spiral over the past few years, it is tragic, and my heart breaks for the people who loved him and wanted the best for him, especially Nick and Angel. My thoughts are with them and their families. I’m glad that Nick is with his Backstreet brothers right now and has at least today off to begin to process this, although I’m sure it’s hard for him to be so far away from the rest of his family.
In light of this tragedy, I’ve decided to postpone my planned update for today. Coincidentally, the next chapter of The World Will Be Waiting touches on Leslie’s death, and I don’t feel right posting it today, knowing Nick is going through this again with another sibling. I much prefer fictional drama to the real life kind, and this just hits too close to home right now. My apologies to anyone who was looking forward to reading it today, but I’m sure you will understand. I’ll post it next Saturday, if not before. I just wanted to let you know why I’m choosing to delay the update. Please keep the Carter family in your thoughts and prayers.
Yes, yes it is! It’s also the twentieth anniversary of Nick’s first solo album, Now or Never! There’s a part of me that can’t believe it’s been twenty years since that album came out. I don’t want to accept it because it came out my senior year of high school, which means I’ve been out of high school almost twenty years. How can that be? But then I remember using my boombox to dub my Now or Never CD onto a cassette tape to play in my first car because it didn’t have a CD player and am forced to admit that, yes, it really has been that long, and I am, in fact, old.
The Now or Never era is an important part of my personal fandom history because it’s when I fell in love with Nick. I had been a BSB fan for almost five years by that point, but Nick used to be my least favorite member of the group. I know – shocking, right? Teenage Nick never really appealed to me; I found him annoying in interviews, and his yellow curtain hair was not attractive to me at all. But by the time Now or Never came out, he had grown up a bit and cut his hair, and gradually, I began to realize how hot he was. I think it helped that I also started reading more Nick-centered fanfics around this time because most of my fanfic friends were Nick girls, so that’s what they wrote. I know I became obsessed with the Swollen Issues series around this time because that inspired me to write Broken, which turned me into more of a Nick writer. Now or Never certainly influenced Broken, too. I remember watching the “I Got You” music video frequently for “inspiration” (okay, eye candy) and wrote a lot about Nick walking on the beach and taking his boat out on the water because of it. And, of course, there’s the scene of him singing “Who Needs the World” to Claire in her hospital room. Those two tracks, along with “Blow Your Mind,” are still some of my all-time favorite Nick solo songs. I’m listening to the album as I write this post and, overall, it still holds up well. (Though, ironically, the one song I still hate is the title of this post, “Is It Saturday Yet?” Sorry, Nick, but that song belonged on your brother’s album.) Happy anniversary, Now or Never!
Now for the update! Chapter 5 of The World Will Be Waiting is up! This story also makes me nostalgic for Broken and its sequel, By My Side, because it reminds me of them – especially BMS. My writing style has evolved since then, but otherwise, this story has a similar feel in a lot of ways. I don’t think I’ll ever be as obsessed with a story as I was with Broken/BMS, but I’m absolutely loving writing this one so far, maybe even more than My Brother’s Keeper? I always felt that the fun of Broken/BMS was knocking Nick down so I could build him back up again (and then knock him down again… and build him back up again… and again…), and that’s how I feel about Kevin in this story. It’s like he finally made it to the light at the end of a long, dark tunnel, and I’m enjoying letting him bask in its warm glow, while occasionally still looking back at the darkness. Like I said in my last update, it’s been refreshing to write something relatively light and fluffy for a change. That being said, this chapter is a little angstier than the previous ones. I hope you enjoy it!