I have a confession to make. As you may have noticed, I missed my weekly update on Saturday. I’m sorry about that. I’ve been having a crisis of confidence with my new novel, A Heart That Isn’t Mine. In spite of forcing myself to write every day, I’ve been struggling with this for awhile now, which is why I was so hesitant to post this story in the first place. I don’t know if I’m losing my touch or just growing a conscience, but I am having a tough time with all the Nick torture in this one. “But Julie, you’ve been torturing Backstreet Boys in your stories for nineteen years,” you might be saying – and you would be right. I have, and it’s never really bothered me before, but lately, all this drama has been giving me quite a guilt trip. So I’ve decided to make some changes and turn over a new leaf when it comes to writing.
I have sought help to overcome my unhealthy addiction to medical drama and angst by joining an organization called Angstaholics Anonymous. It’s a twelve step program that I’ve been following. I’m on Step 8, which is to make a list of people I’ve harmed and be willing to make amends to those people. I found it therapeutic to compile the following list of ways in which I have harmed the Boys in my fanfiction. My hope is that acknowledging and apologizing for these grievous acts will help me on my road to recovery.
(SPOILER ALERT: The list below gives away plot details from many of my stories. Read at your own risk.)